hi. how have u been?
i know this text might come so suddenly.
It is not like i havent moved on. I dont know.
I am pretty sure i have.
Strangely last night i had a dream about you.
you were taking a holiday with your partner, to vietnam. and you somehow took some romantic pictures & videos with him in the places i’ve once been to.
the dream framed it as a nightmare, and i found myself walking like a drunk person to the toilet to wash my face cuz i got an extreme headache.
Again, it is not like i haven’t moved on. After our breakup, I have dated another girls, i had fallen in love, went through some heartbreaks too.
But i love how some random memories of someone in our lives suddenly strike us in the normalcy of life. Memories indeed has such strong power to distort your-already-clear mind.
And all of sudden, it leaves the feeling of emptiness in your heart. It is strange, it is not love either. Insecurity? Perhaps. Fragility? Maybe. Or just the universe being goofy and trivial.
Anyway i just wrote this text just to make me feel a bit better because holding it alone feels heavy.
Also, putting aside the nightmare that i had, i am actually very happy for your relationship with the new partner, i truly truly am. Hope he doesnt hurt you the way i did, and loves you more than i do.
I expect you not to reply this message. Just want to let my emotions out. So thank you if you manage to read it till this part.
Please always take care of your health,
and be happy.
warm regards,
Your ex.