Friday, June 10th, 2016.
First of all, i am really not good at being little-brother-ish person to write a letter, so maybe this will be kind of lame. (Don't blame me for that, kak :'v) But i hope you'll still read it haha
Additionally, it's been decades since i haven't write any letter to anyone, and i was such a lazy shit to do that too.. but i swear this words can't be hold anymore. So,
To my dearest friend, kak Kenny
Today is my last day in Depok. It'll be my last time with you too. I'll be coming back to my hometown, and leave all the sparkling glimpse of the city and its very bright light. (for holiday at least 3 months) And I'll really be missing to be here, and of course, i'll miss you too.
You are such a sociable and easy-going person. I know, right.. who doesn't know kenny? xD who always being so noisy and cheerful, who shares her own bright atmosphere to the surroundings, who always encourages me when i'm down, who always gets happy too when i'm happy, and at last, who always being unlucky in love life story wk. From the dorm's security, janitor, SR, sampai abang2 tukang jual minuman di kantin, everyone knows you. i might be just another friend for you, or maybe just nobody else, just a small drop in the ocean. But for me, i already think of you as my own sister. Someone whom I consider as close person to me. I always want to have a proper sister. And you have let me know how it feels to have such a cheerful and fussy older sister for the very first time in my life. And yes, without anyone else will be asking how, i will undoubtly answer, i am so happy. it was such a reaaally awesome experience ^^
Thank you, for being my older sister. For treating me as if i'm your own bother. Or at least, that's how i felt.
Do you still remember when i had no money that time, i was just laying down my head on the table in the dorm's cafetaria almost the whole day lazily, waiting for a miracle to happen, before you suddenly came out from nowhere and said, "what's up? Let's hang out!" and then treated me all i want in the menu, which later i choose fried chicken & cream soup my favorite, which did cost you some amount of money. First time being treated by acquaintance. Such a great 'first impression' to me haha. But then, all i could turn back to you when you were hungry (in another day and time) was bakso depan asrama which is so cheap and didn't mean anything really :") wkwk
Thank you for being there for me. I really appreciate it :)
But lately, we have become so busy with ourself. Especially since i'm together with this kid @itslisafira, i feel like we were getting apart. I felt like i wasn't no more part of our small 'circle',
our peer group, and my presence is no more important to you guys. I could feel it clearly. You guys hanging out without me, and have some great times together. I wasn't even asked to come. To be honest, i was really sad, but i just never say it :") I was wandering why, i don't understand. But after all, i know you guys have reasons, because i know you are good people, right?^^ I just hope we can be like old times hehe :'D But i don't know. Things change, don't they? So do people. I can't expect for something i don't have power of it. Anyway! Lets just save this for another moment, in another story 😂😅
By the time you read this, i may have arrived in my hometown. Maybe we won't be able to meet again, since you will soon be graduated. I honestly admit, that i'm not that kind of person who are expressive and capable to convey his/her feeling thru expressions. I'm the person who will just say couple of things after our last goodbye hug, while this kid @itslisafira will be like crying and say sweet things to you. I don't. But deep inside, i'm actually feel the same :')
And by the end of this letter, i would like to express my sorry because i won't be able to attend your graduation ceremony eventhough i already said i will. sorry i can't keep my promise :')
All i can say is, hope you'll graduated with best score, and will be able to work in kind of job you've been wanting for, and stay/placed at the place you wish to be there, and will meet your true love (or have you? Wkwk). I wish you for endless blessing for good health, and happy life in the future! 😊
I know this letter really means nothing to you. But, it's the only farewell 'gift' i can ever give. By this letter, I hope you will remember me. And if you really do read until here, i'll be so glad :") hehe
So anyway, yeah.. good bye, kak! Until next time we meet (maybe)? Thanks for everything you've done for me. I'm sorry for being such a really nuisance and bothersome to you. Under this blurry sky where we met, those happy memories, craziest times x'D, i will never forget it.
I really wish to see those cheerful smiles again. smiles that brighter than the sun. keep fighting kak! ^^
Keep spreading the happiness to your surroundings.
Sayonara~
Palembang, June 10th, 2016
Bayu Aji Pamungkas
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PS: foto diambil di Vokasi UI, pas selese sidang TKA. This is the only photo of us i got in my phone. We rarely really take photo together, don't we?